Equatorial Disdain

The hillside lights up slowly, three blinking towers on the crest to make a crown. The sunlight dies, quickly, quickly now it dies. I wait patiently, day after day, for the full moon to come. Clouds skew my vision, take up all that open space and spit it right back at me.

You sons of bitches, you. You bloated equatorial currents of evaporated air billowing in from off of the Great Blue, shimmering deep and wide. I despise your condescending condensation, causing me to bend low muttering curses that sound like prayers.

This blue moon will drag me to it, right from 28 straight into 29.

This Ikea star hovers above me, throwing incandescent promises into the deepening night.

The Egg Before The Chicken

It’s raining in Seattle again, and I don’t know what to do with my life. I’ve never really known and never understood those who seemed to decide their life path with such grace and ease.

Maybe if I lie on my bed long enough and stare at the ceiling hard enough it will come to me. I can memorize the ridges and bumps and holes and lumps that make up the drywall covering and perhaps all of those intricate mishaps will somehow coalesce into a life plan.

I'm almost 29 and find myself asking the same questions I did at 12.

Fuck searching for an answer, I'm hungry and feel like making an omelet.

And omelets, as we all know, make everything better.

Quiet In The Fall

It's been a long month. I'm moving (again) and not feeling that great about it. In fact, I'm not feeling that great about much right now. A very low point indeed. I think I could use a little help from Superman. But since Superman is busy saving the rest of the world, this cry for help will have to suffice.

I asked you a question
I didn't need you to reply
Is it getting heavy?
And then realize
It's getting heavy
Well I thought it was already as heavy as can be.

Is it overwhelming
To use a crane to crush a fly?
It's a good time for Superman
To lift the sun into the sky
Cause it's getting heavy
Well I thought it was already as heavy as can be.

Tell everybody
Waiting for Superman
That they should try to
Hold on the best they can
He hasn't dropped them, forgot them or anything
It's just too heavy for Superman to lift.

~Waiting For A Superman (As covered by Iron and Wine)